Asides from the fact that e sure for me say nobody fit kill me (not even my university), I don’t feel any emotion towards death, and I do not fear it.
When you talk to yourself, ensure you’re speaking positivity into your life. There’s power in words. That’s why you should be mindful of what you say to yourself, because other people’s words are also powerful. Let your voice be the greater factor, and God’s too, not the negative one of the society / other people.